Someday, somewhere, somehow..

My dreams of us together will come true. I don’t know how just yet, but nothing can keep that energy, that type of love apart. She left the physical realm on April 29, 2018. Her spirit lit the room as it ascended. I huddled over her body. Praying for a miracle, trying to collect my thoughts and cells to somehow transmute whatever energies I could muster to bring forth Gods hands through mine. Electric life. I held on to the thought that bolts of lightning were going to shoot out of my fingertips and bring her back to life. I can feel her take her last breath. My heart breaks Her family and I collectively cried. We held each other close and rode the tides. I grabbed the 20lb crystal I had on your bed and went outside. I held you up to the moon. The pink moon. Tears streaming down my face. John Cusac, Say Anything. 


For a moment the clouds parted and you showed yourself. 

Your transition has begun.

For months I’ve mourned, celebrated, mourned, celebrated. Struggled. Today, right now, marks Four months since you’ve been gone,

Still searching for what I don’t know. Will never know, never understand.

I found it all in her.

She was the light. My light. 

And I almost turned it off.

I wouldn’t change it for the world, 100 times over just to love you harder. It was magic. 

You were magic.

And now it’s gone, all apart of the same song.

Who knows what, nothing is true 

Until you find yourself floating in the blue

A spark ignites, the one to stay alive

You saw it in her, she held it in her eyes

And like a soft breeze blowing feels l