It’s been 5 months since Maria’s past away and these last few days have been insanely difficult. I didn’t know it was humanly possible to cry this much. My tear ducts are sore. Crystalline water has been squirting out of my face for three days and I’m just trying my best to stay a float. I try to keep myself busy but everything reminds me of her. Of what I saw, of what we experienced. It’s left such a mute taste in my mouth, on my spirit. The world is gray, no longer oper