Thank God for solid friends. I was running on empty. I had nothing left in the tank. Laying in bed, pillow cases soaked Contemplating. Life. Death. What’s it all for? ...I was in it. Thick. The rain slamming on my window matched the rain streaming from my eyes. Maria. Why you? THICK. I miss her so much. My heart hurts. Crawled up in the corner of my bed. Head buried in my pillows, in and out of consciousness. Praying for the day to end. It’s 2:42. I’ve alr

Maria, Maybe there’s a way back to you. I’ve said your name 8 billion times since you’ve left, called it to the heavens, whispered to myself hopping to hear your voice in return I haven’t stopped thinking about you and how much longer this all is going to take. Something’s gotta give. I can feel it. The levee has broken. I’ve cried oceans. I cry oceans. I sometimes get the feeling that I’m doing you a disservice by holding on so tight, but it’s so hard to let go. W

Maria I see you in the moon.. My pink moon forever till the day we gravitate in orbit again. I miss your touch. The way you make my tides rise, or calm them in the same way, your touch. It’s Magic. A instant soothing ability, your hands could calm a raging storm within me. Electric fire raged within you as well. One touch from you, not even a touch, a look, thee look, and I was yours. Forever. Passion, deep sensual passion. Tender Love. Cosmic. The light you shined upon this

The end of an era.. Today, I filed to officially shut down my company Extra Sensory Productions LLC.. My heart aches. On top of it all, the sun is going down and there’s no sign of the folks from HGTV Dream Home Giveaway showing up to hand me the keys to the brilliant future I had planned.. If that changes within the next few hours, I’ll keep you posted. Today is/was a no bueno.. I felt like I suffered through multiple deaths..(Again) but I’m still here. (Still) The show must

I usually don’t do this type of stuff but I need a break and I’ve been praying for this since the day I laid eyes on it. I’ve imagined myself there. I’ve felt the texture, smelled the fragrances, the clean crisp air. I’ve imagined Maria and I, alone in meditation looking out amongst the trees. I’ve imagined myself cleansing my spirit with the earths energies. I can feel electricity surge in my fingers. A fire begins to spark within my core. Life swells throughout my entire